It was an ideal Sunday. Beatific with just the right temperature. My man, me, and my roommate and her boyfriend (also my friend) went out for a late lunch- the others bailed out. On their recommendation we chose this little Greek place, right off the crowded alleys of South Street. It was a tiny restaurant, tucked into folds of burgeoning FCUK and Condom Kingdom stores. Our waitress, was chewing a kalamata olive leaf as she welcomed us and situated us in a dark, tiny room, next to the kitchen. A large chandelier emitted a soft red glow and framed pictures of the Greek Isles glittered eeriley in the aura.
Over lunch we discussed many things. San Fransico vs New York, living in a city vs living in a suburb, cigars, money, careers and food. Being a vegeterian denies me of a cultural experience - local food. My friend nibbled hungrily at their lamb legs as I made an effort to like the olive-roll and plain, baked vegetables. Our lunch was over quickly but our conversations were just begining.
We talked about life, dreams and money. S said he wanted to make $5m by age 40 and then retire and pursue his dream - of making movies. G said she wanted to start her resutarant after she made her first M. R said he wanted to work or the government and go back to school to learn. And I wondered.... what did I want to do after...? after what?!

I realized, that unlike my friends and my boyfriend- I am already doing what I love. I am living my dream. I am not waiting to hit a certain age, make a certain amount of money or do certain things before I can follow my dreams. Yea, my situation is different. I don't have to worry about Green-Card and such but even if I had to, I probably would still be doing what I am doing right now: following my dream.

R said I was lucky. I bristled a little. I didn't want luck to take credit for my sensibility. And then R said, I was lucky that I had the guts to follow my dreams and not worry about stability and the regular things.

I glowed. But it is true.

I make peanuts right now. But I have faith, tons of it. I believe, if you follow your dream, if you are good at what you do- the money will come. Perhaps a little late, but it will.

I don't denounce my friends for not following their dreams right now. I think every dream has it's own time to be born. Perhaps, their time is not right now.

I am not afraid of the things regular people are afraid of. I am not worried that I will not have food to eat. I am not worried I won't have money to live. I am not worried about what the world will say. And I don't care much about what others think about the way I live my dreams and work towards achieving them. (after all, these are my dreams and I know the best about my strategy)

It takes a different sensibility to be recklessly single-minded- and I was lucky to be born with it. Logic defies me. I defy logic. Or maybe I am one of those weaklings, who cannot be happy doing anything else but that they love. That is, after all, a weakness.

But it never occured to me, that it is also my strength. In Lost, John Locke says to Dr.Jack, "You are a man of science. I am a man of faith."
Those words stayed with me. I have immense faith in myself. I once read in 'The Alchemist' that once you send a wish, a desire to the universe-- the entire universe works towards making it come true for you. You only have to want it bad enough.

Another highlight of my evening? I saw different facets to my friends. I heard their dreams and saw it in their eyes how bad they wanted to achieve their goals. I congratulated them secretly in my mind-- because their job is already half done :) They've wished it. Now, the universe has started working its way....